The year mark was a big deal for me, but not much for others. It was a big deal for the trust factor. I don't know what it is, but if you have time on the mission, people trust you more. Members, missionaries, and just people we talk to everyday. It's way sad that I only get a year left. I want to use it the best way I can. It's moving by so fast too! I think that's part of the sadness I'm feeling right now. I don't feel like I'm doing my best because we aren't getting any baptisms. I have a year left My goal is 40, and I've only received 9 baptisms. I know I shouldn't judge success by baptisms, but it's hard sometimes not to. I hate having a dry month. That hasn't happened since U.C. So it's pushing me to want to do better, but I feel like I'm being held back. I also can't wait for this year to be over so I can rest for a moment. Aren't you just way excited for everything to happen? So, I guess I am for sure feeling the bittersweetness of it all. The best I can do is take it easy and live in the moment knowing I can do hard things. I need to if I'm going to get 31 more baptisms.
I'm so glad you get advice for me from other missionaries. Keep it up. I need all the help I can get. I'm teachable. :)
I have to admit that we don't workout all the time. I shouldn't excuse it, but we ride bikes and that puts a pretty big toll on my body, but we are working on doing pushups together. It's a goal of ours. I want to gain the weight back, so we both need to start working out more.
You talked about how obedience is happiness. This is so true!! Yes, this is why it's been a hard transfer for me. If I could start at the beginning again with Elder Nielson, things would be better I think. I would just do things differently now that I know his personality. This isn't the most disobedient transfer that I've had. I say that because we don't really break any rules. It's by far the laziest transfer I've had though. The ZLs are fully aware of what's going on. It's funny in a sense that you have to adjust to who ever your companion is. Well, if your companion refuses to go with you if you knock, you can't do much. You just work on helping out your companion. Which is a lot of what I've been doing in McNeil. You could say that the soul I am saving is Elder Nielson's. I believe he will be a great missionary once he leaves McNeil. I've taught him everything he needs to know. He just refuses to apply it because it's been put in his head that nothing good will happen here. Anyways, don't worry about me. I'm having a tough time, but I'm working through. Just pray for me, and I know things will get better. They already are looking up since my first transfer with him.
What is my dream on the mission? To go spanish speaking!! I will feel complete once I do that. Going to South Zone of the border. LOL. Would it be bad if I asked you to pray for that to happen this transfer?
Do I like being a missionary? Not at all. Get me out of here!! JK. I LOVE it with all my heart. I know I'll probably end up being that nerd in elders quorum that relates everything back to his mission. There's nothing I'd rather do, and I can't wait to share this experience with you! Will you serve a mission with me? We've gotta start saving up while we're young so that we can do it.
My favorite thing about the mission is how many lives I get to change for the better. I knew I would effect investigators, but missionaries, members, and myself? For example- Elder Nielson. The things I teach him and how him now are forming him into the man, husband, and father he will be for the rest of his life. The things I train my district on... that changes their lives as well. All in all, I get to make a big difference in peoples lives.
Conference WAS way awesome!! I loved every moment. LOL. It's funny, they said exactly everything we needed to hear. Like you said, Elder Hale's talk was the best.
Know that I am safe and happy. Truly happy.
Elder Nathan Morris
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